Side-effects of...

“Is the number of candles on your birthday cake inversely proportional to your common-sense?” I keeping asking questions of this kind to myself these days. Quite not able to decide like what is best-suited, what is worth being done and what is worth giving up; I find myself somewhat puzzled, and sort of stressed. Are these all not the side-effects of being a grown-up? You have to prove yourself at all fronts, along with the thing that you only are responsible for every single decision you take. Oh! this is never easy.

I keep feeling some invisible frown lines on my face, which the mirror actually never shows up there. Going through different moods in the weather that I don’t like is even worse, I see. January winters are so annoying! I keep finding myself struggling for the peace of mind until I keep sitting inside my room. Eventually I observe that I can’t sit for another moment, and I’m taken outside by a strong urge to breathe.

I am happily surprised to see that it is raining. Come what may, I can’t miss it. I wear my raincoat, and start walking in the rain. No, it is not raining cats and dogs; and in the play of a few moments, the droplets stop touching the ground. I take off the raincoat and plan to go for a long drive. And I go for it.

A handful of time which I have to share with nobody else holds its own beauty. I keep going on and on, with no bulky thoughts on my mind. Light, soothing music coming from no DVD player, but from my very own biological music system is indeed relaxing. I can’t sing well, I know. But that does not matter as long as nobody is there to laugh upon it. Yes, I am at ease now. The long drive too helps somehow. I get back to home feeling much better. 

Spending a bit of time with the nature brings me back to my nature. I’m no more frowning, and I’m no more yelling. Stress seems all gone, and the smiling me is back to my world. :)

Timsy.